Pain

why university life is so stressful ?
everytime when i study,
i kept telling myself that study is enjoyable,
but how could i lie myself ? and how long ?
don't tell me you enjoyed when the eyes burn and rashed,
it's suffered to shoulder all the pain in the head.
after study until late at night,
it still arrived at the same result,
WHAT FOR ?

Coward

realizing my fault make me a guilty people ,
me to selfish . but i have no brave to make some greeting ,
may be im strangers to you now ,
plus your anger ,
better i took to sink my self in silence ,
to be a coward person in my life as usual .

me bad son

ignored by you doesn't give any sense to me but i never hope that .
i realized you love others more then me .
im the worst son of you and i knew that .
but respecting you is a must .
i'm sorry because cannot be the good one .
thanks god given mother who love me always no matter how is me .

hear me

it seems like i don't know how to showing my feelings
it needs so much strength to deal with that
i have no intention to falling in love
but it just happen
can you hear me ?

doesn't meant

my buddies talk to me how his felt when he was ignored .
i just can said , ''doesn't meant what i want are mine'' .

time

a year zoom very fast . 

1 of 11 luckiest person talk

nothing to say about you my friend but i feel like i owe you so much . i have no words about first love . when there has someone i miss i will contact them and make a long chat . im not dare to dream a very beautiful girl with prettiest face but as long she want a serious relationship thats enough .what people don't know about me is i had one major problem that always happen that i forget what i had said to myself . to be hypocrite will doesn't bring a good solution but might be give big problem , better speak the truth . in my birthday i always hope to discovered a new life and make a new chapter in my life to do anything to be a wiser and strong person . i am confidence in something i have done but easy to lose it if someone judge me . there has many problem in life but i like to picked a random problem and discovered a few different ways of solve it . sometime i fail sometime complete . i want arabic style in my wedding theme that decorated with goldish colours , haha . nothing much i hope 11 years from now but i wish i could be the person that can make my parents proud of me that is more than enough . me , ariff .